I’m about to do some upper middle class, white person whining right now. Nevermind I don’t neatly fall into those categories.
Last night there was a shooting a block away from my apartment. No, no one died. Yes, someone was hurt. No, it was not someone I know. But that won’t stop me from making this all about me and my life in some way. More to the point, it’s forced me to accept something about myself that I would have liked to ignored.
When a senseless event occurs in an area, it’s not uncommon for nearby residents to somehow tie themselves to the event so the intensity of their feelings become more aligned with their role in the story. In other words, everyone feels like they literally dodged a bullet.
I will say for myself, I was at that exact spot an hour before and then with the Girl two hours after the incident. So, what I’m really saying is DUDE! I ALMOST DIED! No, not really.
Actually, a woman around my age walking down the closest perpendicular street through the intersection did get hit with a bullet in the back. Is it enough to say my neighbors and I owe her a degree of reverence for being the one of us who was at the wrong place at the wrong time?
So, all those things we surburban refugees tell ourselves about how violence tends to affect only those who perpetuate it is revealed to be utter bullshit. Even if you keep your nose clean and live your life without pissing off violent people, you can’t protect yourself from a bad shot or an apathetic aim.
And in a city where I can hear my neighbors sobbing, fucking and washing their dishes, we all occupy space in each other’s worlds. I know our neighbor is a devout Christian because I hear the sermons in her television set. Also, I know our other neighbor has cancer because he’s begged us not to walk so loudly down our own hallway. It makes his migraines swell. Ergo, I also know exactly where along our living room wall he keeps his bed.
I tell myself I’m willing to trade negotiations like these in order to live in a city where humanity is in such concentrate, where people cannot help but influence each other and cause each other to change. But, as last night illustrated, living so close to each other has darker consequences. Since I am a volunteered transplant, I can only blame myself for what our environment conjures up.
It was my idea to move here. At the time, the Girl told me she could have lived her whole life in the sleepy bedroom community where she grew up. When I met her, shortly after moving to the town for work, I knew would hate myself if we stayed there. I deeply resented the people for valuing peace over vibrancy. Plus, I was younger and even more of an entitled asshole.
So after a layoff then a new job, here we are in this city, and it turns out the Girl loves it — her being a people person and all. Hardened old schoolers, who don’t care to look me in the eye, treat her with the kindest regard.
But my ever-present fear is that one day it will be her struck in the back by a passing bullet meant for someone else. Or that she’ll lose her soul after being dragged into a dark alley…
How would I live with myself knowing I brought us here?
On this day, I can’t really believe I’ve allowed this person on whose happiness and well being I’ve supposedly based everything to come so close to her demise. I feel this way despite the fact that at that moment, we were not in the neighborhood.
And yet, I still don’t want to move somewhere safer. What would this other place be like? I guess that’s something else I’ve based everything on.
I’m probably a selfish, ignorant twat for thinking I can have my urban cake and the safety of my loved ones, too. Maybe one day, the city will find a way to tell me that I, in no way, deserve this much happiness.
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“/ To bring inspiration and innovation to every athlete in the world
/ Respect, Integrity, Communication and Excellence.
/ To be the “World’s Most Admired Company”.
/ Our vision is to be earth’s most customer centric company; to build a place where people can come to find and discover anything they might want to buy online.
/ To organize the world’s information and make it universally accessible and useful.
/ Sustainable Growth: Increasing shareholder and societal value while reducing our environmental footprint.
/ Build the best product, cause no unnecessary harm, use business to inspire and implement solutions to the environmental crisis.””